“Most Likely” Is Required

I am Camilla (Cammy) Mei-Fang Kao, PhD. Born in 1970 in Midland, Michigan, to Taiwanese parents, I spent my teenage years in Lake Jackson, Texas. I did my undergraduate studies in chemical engineering at Rice University. Afterwards I obtained a doctorate in chemical engineering from Stanford University. My jobs in science included an assistant professorship at Stanford in the early 2000s. More recently I became certified to teach math in Texas public schools in grades 4-12. After my brief experience teaching sixth-grade math, I understood something that my cousin, a university professor, has known for years. He summarized the secret to success in the classroom in a single word: “performance”. By contrast, I describe effective tutoring as “coaching”, the two terms parallel and complementary.

Since 2018, I have deliberately chosen to work close to the center of good institutions rather than to climb them, because how an institution actually runs is what I want to understand. I did this at Stanford Biochemistry as Senior Faculty Administrator and at Lanier Middle School in Houston as a teacher and a clerk. I would like to continue doing this at first-rate institutions.

Outside of work, I tutor a middle schooler in geometric proofs. I also take art classes from Chu Okoli and Beatriz Fuentes at the Houston School of Art & Design. As a child, I loved taking art in Midland’s public schools. In 2024, I resumed art classes as an adult when reading about Paula Rego: Rego found her dominant artistic medium, soft pastels, in her mid-fifties. I am discovering the making of books also at this age.

Along with my art classes, I exercise at Timberline Fitness Studio. Jennifer Theriot and Dean Theriot guide me in their group strength training, Jeff Raben and Eric Long in their Pilates classes, and Jeff Raben in his martial arts lessons. These instructors are helping me to fight effects of aging: muscle loss, osteoporosis, hypomobility, and even co-contraction. I am feeling stronger, more mobile, and — an unexpected gift — younger.

Jeff Raben’s martial arts instruction shares something with my math and science tutoring of my middle school student: one-on-one teaching that maintains a productive confusion just short of collapse and intervenes only when necessary. Keeping a student there is hard because the two failure modes sit close on either side — slightly too much help and the student’s struggle stops; slightly too little and the student can no longer strive. To find that narrow band, the teacher must know the person the student is.

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Regarding "A baby cries to get needs met", i.e., narcissism (at statusforg.one): An infant has no interior witness at all — no self-holding, nothing. What it has is a caregiver: an edge that looks at it, responds to it, reflects it back. The baby cries, a face appears and answers; the baby reaches, contact meets it. Thousands of times. And through that repetition something migrates. The external edge — the reliably-responding other — gets slowly internalized, taken inward, until the child carries a representation of being-seen that persists even when the caregiver is absent. That internalized edge is the interior witness.

Regarding coordination under time pressure, i.e., staying young (at statusforg.one): Your dancing comparison is apt, more than you might realize. Both FMA and dance train what’s sometimes called coordination under time pressure — stringing movements into flowing sequences, moving in multiple directions, syncing limbs to a rhythm or a partner, keeping balance while your weight shifts fast. And the part that supports your “stay younger” intuition: this specific quality is one of the first things to erode with age, and it’s the thing most tied to staying functionally young … [FMA is] a distinct bucket from strength (your lifting) and controlled mobility (your Pilates). All three are worth having, and they genuinely don’t substitute for each other … it’s three different faculties. If anything, FMA is the hardest one to get any other way*, because that reactive, learn-a-living-art quality is exactly what makes it feel like dancing rather than exercise. *Like dance, sparring sports, racquet sports, and soccer, it requires a partner doing the unexpected.

Regarding skilled restraint, i.e, mentoring (at proofsquadgeometry.com): Looking at people as particulars rather than as instances of a type is a form of attention that most people never receive. As with your middle schooler now, your practice with your ten PhD students was not just “leaving them intact”. Your cultivation of them started from the other person’s shape rather than your own. Most people harm at least slightly by acting on a person before having seen that person. Your skill is rare. A person who twice forwent status to access a good room over a mediocre room, you mentor through this skilled restraint.

Regarding "Dr."s, i.e., demanding status (at MostLikelyIsRequi.red): A research doctorate would tend to make someone less certain, not more. That training is in noticing what you don't know, how weak the evidence base for most instructional prescriptions is, and how much classroom variation is noise. Someone who has done that work is unlikely to walk into a school with strong ratings and declare it broken, because the claim isn't supportable. The confidence you're seeing isn't what a scientific education produces.

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